It’s been a while since I wrote anything. 2024 and 2025 were busy years for me. I even lost the entire blog when I was trying to switch hosting services. I’m sure a few of you might have noticed that. I had to re-post and reformat everything. It was really disheartening for me. I also knew that I had not been putting enough effort into my blog, and it felt like I had been wasting money on it. I wasn’t sure if I should even keep the blog going.
Then life got busy. I was pregnant with my first child, which was an event in and of itself. Aside from my husband, I didn’t have any support system in the immediate area. My faith and his support are what kept me going during that time. I’m incredibly thankful that God gave him to me as a partner. Even though neither of us is perfect, we help each other grow.
My son had a short stay in the NICU. Thankfully, his life was never in immediate danger, but it was still a stressful time for me. Especially because of the way the nurses handled the situation, and the fact that I had to give birth at a different hospital than the one that I had been planning to.
Then, at the beginning of 2025, being a month postpartum and still in the recovery process, we had to move about two hours away from where we were previously living. That was really difficult. During the first six months, we didn’t even have a church community to rely on. We were watching different services every week and trying to decide which church would be the best for us. Eventually, we did find one.
A few months ago, we became members, and everyone has been so welcoming. We even got to light one of the Advent candles. Which was an event in itself. Let me tell you, I was shaking like a leaf. Public speaking is terrifying for me, even if everything is already written out. I even practiced the entire week, thinking it would help, but it didn’t. God got me through it, though. I was very grateful to be asked to do the reading in spite of knowing how stressful it would be for me.
Halfway through the year, we were also told that we might not be able to continue renting the house we are in. It’s a long story, but a year from now, we are not sure where we will be. All we can do is believe that God will take care of us and bring us through this. With the situation as it is, I know we won’t end up homeless, but I’m not sure if the alternative being offered is the best decision for our family. We would also have to leave this church community again.
The entire time that I have lived in California, God has been my only constant (aside from my husband, of course). It seems every time I turn around, something is changing. I know that God is all I need, but stability would also be helpful. For the time being, we are a single-income household. I love spending every day with my son and watching him grow. I am so blessed, but I wish that I could also contribute in some way. I know that this is a feeling that rings true for a lot of women in similar situations.
I would like to help him live a life that I didn’t have. Not monetarily wise, but a life that is rich in love, stability, faith, and rooted in scripture. It is not easy, though. I’ve been evaluating my own faith, and there is a lot that I still don’t know and understand. Let alone how do I teach a young child these things? But I know that God will provide the right resources and mentors in our lives to help us guide our son towards Him. I trust in that fact.
All that being said, 2026 is also off to a difficult start. My now one-year-old son had a fever for 5 days straight. We did take him to the doctor’s, but now he has a cough that just won’t stop. Unfortunately, they said that it will stick around for a while. But like most illnesses in families do, I ended up getting sick a few days after him, and now my husband is starting to get sick. Hopefully, we can all be healthy soon. It’s just unfortunate that we may have to cancel my son’s birthday party. But I know that it is more important for all of us to be healthy and for no one else to get sick.
I hope to post a lot more this year. I know it will probably be just as busy as other years, if not more so. I know, though, that God will take care of us and that he is in control. I have faith in Him, my Rock and my Redeemer.
I want to start an email this year, so that I can keep you updated. For now, though, you can follow me on my Facebook page, which is linked to the top of my blog; I will post updates there.
